How do I decide if an impression is communication with a god? It depends on how specific the impression is. And how not-me it is. I have had four different types of communication with gods--Dramatic Vision, Meditation Companion, Playback, and Direct Intervention. I will describe a specific example of each kind. I wish I were a verbal thinker...Mostly I think in shapes / images / relationships between things. Anyway, communication with the gods in those terms is difficult to turn into words. DRAMATIC VISION When I was 7 or 8, I decided I wanted to have a Spirit Guide, so I fasted and journeyed into the wilderness to have a vision. Yeah, right, like my mother would let me. Really, I skipped breakfast and lunch and lay in the backyard under a tree, trying to think like a mystical Indian. I did not get a spirit guide. What I got instead was a vision of a large man with his head in the clouds walking toward me. When he got to me, he stopped and struck the ground with a hammer or axe (hard to tell). The ground split open into a canon. He reached into the canon and took out a smooth black stone (about fist sized), which he then pressed against my breastbone. The stone was absorbed into my chest. Then he turned and walked away. Of course, at the time, my main thought was along the lines of "Oh great, eveyone else get bears and hawks and I get a rock." Now I think, "Why did Thor choose a scholarly geek like me?" MEDITATION COMPANION This is my most common communication. When I want to meditate, I mentally travel to a particular location in my mental landscape. Usually, this is a particular high desert mountain with lots of trees and some large rocks well placed to be seats or backrests. The spot overlooks a broad plain. When I settle in to meditate, I go there and calm myself by looking around and listening to the sounds. Often, but not always, I have a strong impression that the god is also sitting there, looking and listening with me. There is no active communication, just the sense of sitting with someone you know well enough not to have to talk when you are together. The most powerful sign I have had recently that a different god is trying to communicate with me is that when I try to meditate in my usual place, I am transported to another location--walking along a path, with a lot of trees on either side, tall (I don't know what kind of tree but the impression is specific enough that if I saw one in real life I would recognize it). A strong breeze is making the tops of the trees move and making a distinctive sound in the branches. I walk along and meditate in company with the god. PLAYBACK The new god (whom I have yet to identify) that is trying to communicate with me uses an unusual method. He plays back memories--images and sounds, mostly, but also some body-memories. I think these are memories that he has collected from other people over the years (also some from me). The strangest memory playback was a physical memory of walking along some kind of dirt path with leather sandals on. I can't describe how peculiar it is to remember someone else's body walking. My overall impression is that he is trying to identify himself and also to communicate some specific important task to me, but so far I can't make much out of the multi-media rebus. Typical sample sequence: sound of wind in trees, someone singing some kind of travel song (badly), feel angry, white mittens, large red-headed man changing into a deer, deer running, feeling of satisfaction. The overall impression is that someone was putting things out of balance and that the new god and Thor did something that involved changing Thor into a deer to put things right. DIRECT INTERVENTION I was in Geneva recently and near the hotel there was a english-language bookstore. To get there I walked past a music store. I was looking in the windows as I went, so I slowed down to look at the display at the music store. Nothing gripping there...I have no music experience, interest, or aptitude, I don't go into music stores, and usually walk past them without seeing them. And yet, there was this Impression or Ping or something that I should go in. But I didn't pay much attention. When I got to the bookstore & pulled on the doorhandle, it didn't open, even though there were people inside. I figured it was closed for lunch (lots of stores in Geneva do) and left. Came back a couple of times, same thing--looked into the music store window and then couldn't pull the bookstore door open. Finally, I went in to the music store, I think with the conscious intention of asking about the bookstore. And there was a recorder in there that was just like deja-vu, as if it was already mine & I misplaced it. So I bought it and walked down to the bookstore. I got there just as someone was coming out. It turns out the door opened inward. Doh. I am not generally stupid, so I have to think that something was blocking the idea of pushing. Anyway, now I am learning to play the recorder. A similar intervention led me to find the OCRT web page while searching for something completely unrelated. That is what led me to find organized asatru.